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Before And After

Few days ago my brother was showing me some old family photos. While he was flipping through them I stopped him when I saw a photo that shocked me. It was a photo of me three years ago. The first thing that came out of my mouth when I saw it was “I used to look like that?!”. I think you know what I am talking about. It was a photo of me before I lost the weight.

Back then when I was obese I didn’t like my picture taken. After I lost the weight I was confident enough to pose to cameras. I bought a camera on my 20th birthday and I took plenty of photos, but in all of them I was in a healthy shape. I got used to my body like that and that’s why I was shocked when I saw the obese me in that old photo.

Seeing myself changed a lot, inside and outside, after I lost weight made me feel proud that I made the decision of living a healthy life. It was also a reminder of how I used to look and feel back then, and a motivation to keep moving forward and not fall back to the old unhealthy habits. So to all of you who wants to start this journey I suggest you take before and after photos. Being able to see your progress in front of you will push you further towards your weight loss goal.

Wish you all a happy and a healthy life.

Why I Am NOT Against Fat Acceptance

I know you are probably thinking “She talks about being healthy, she said that she lost weight, she wrote about how wonderful it is to be fit, and now she says she’s with the Fat Acceptance Movement?”

Why not?

At the beginning I was surprised that such a movement exists and was against the whole thing. Still, I decided to learn more about it and understand the reasons behind why people would support and accept being overweight or obese.

First, I want to give you my earlier point of view. I was obese as I mentioned before in my posts, and I hated it. All I could think of was that ‘fat’ equals ‘bad’, and by bad I mean everything in your life. I thought that everyone who’s fat is miserable. When I started to change my lifestyle I also, gradually, started to become judgmental of fat people. I’d say to myself “these people are lazy” “why don’t they get up and exercise” “I lost weight, they can do it too, there’s no excuse!”. But the truth is, there are many reasons why someone can become overweight/obese. Maybe it’s a thyroid issue, or they’re on a medication that causes weight gain, or they have faced an emotional trauma and are using food as comfort…etc. It’s not just about laziness, it’s much deeper than that. We don’t know the stories of the people we meet whether they’re strangers or friends. It’s mean and shallow to think that just because this person is fat, he or she is a slob.

So what made me change my mind? I watched videos and debates about fat acceptance. I also read many blog posts about the matter. The point was to hear the opinions of the people who support the movement. I am lucky to be short with small body frame, which made me only look just overweight when in fact I was obese. Because of that, half of the problems that fat people face weren’t in my everyday life. I wasn’t aware of how they really feel, so I had to listen to their stories. Overweight/obese people go through a lot. Being fat is hard in many ways. Think about it, having to walk everyday in the streets knowing that people will be staring, going shopping with your much lighter friends, buying two seats in a plane because you can’t fit into one, and many other things. These people are brave to go through all this every day. But why do they have to? Why can’t we just treat them like everyone else? Acceptance is all what these people need, it’s all what this is about.

Some people might say “It’s unhealthy! You’re promoting obesity!”. Well, all what I want to promote is equality. I know that being overweight/obese can cause many diseases and health problems, but if they’re really concerned about “health” then why are they just picking on fat people when thin people can have eating disorders too? This is not about health as some might claim, this is about some image formed by the media and shoved down society’s throat. They’re only concerned about how they look. If you’re fat, you’re unhealthy. But if you’re thin, that automatically makes you a healthy person regardless of your diet and lifestyle. I’ve seen plenty of skinny people who eat crap everyday and don’t move at all. I’ve also seen fat people who take care of their bodies. If you really care about these people’s health then you better start bashing skinny people about their anorexia as you do with obese people about their overeating! We should not judge others based on their weight, whether they’re skinny or fat.

What I want to say is that we have to accept people the way they are. Fat shaming is a form of discrimination. The only difference is that it is an ok-kind of discrimination. Besides, it does not help spreading health awareness, it only spreads hate. We should stop it. Fat, skinny, curvy, built, slim..etc are all human at the end.

Why I Decided To Lose Weight

As I said before, I want to share with you my weight loss journey. It’s about time to tell my story of how I lost 19 kgs (about 42 lbs) and still going.

To start, I wanna show you parts of my journal to give you an idea of what was going on in my mind then.

Saturday, Jan 28, 2012

“When you have a pair of black jeans that fits you really well and one day you can’t get in it, you know you’ve got a serious weight gain problem”

“I bought those lovely coats for winter but because I gained about 5 kgs (11 lbs) I couldn’t wear them to college. I got on the scale and I found out the sad truth that I weigh about 80 kgs (176 lbs)!! Since I am 156 cm (5 feet 1) this is not acceptable AT ALL!!! Then I realized I can’t wait anymore to start losing weight.”

“I don’t want to say I am going to ‘diet’, no! I want to change my life style. I don’t want to lose weight to fit in a dress for a party or something. No, I want to have a healthy body and feel good about myself. Beside that I don’t want to learn that I have diabetes or high blood pressure when I turn 30.”

“So my goal is to be 50 kgs (110 lbs) which means I have to lose 25 kgs (55 lbs). This is not an easy thing and it’s gonna take time and will need patience and perseverance. I will do it.”

I’ve been overweight since I was a child and became obese in my late teens. I was in some kind of denial that I am obese. I was well-aware that I needed to lose weight, but not that much. I’ve always wanted to lose weight and never was comfortable in my own skin. When I was 18, in the summer of 2011, I decided that enough is enough. I was determined to lose the 25 kgs and start the junior year in college with a new thin body. Of course I failed. Not only I didn’t lose weight, but gained another 3 kgs (about 7 lbs)! I was crushed.

I then decided to accept the fact that I’ll never be thin and I have to deal with my fat body in another way. So I went to shop for baggy and loose clothes to hide my body. I bought two floral blouses that were ugly as dog vomit. I only bought them because they were loose. I wanted to wear one of them with a black pair of jeans I had to college in the first day in junior year. Guess what? The jeans didn’t fit me. I was crushed even more.

During the first semester of junior year, my body was screaming “please I want to be healthy”. I used to have these awful headaches every single morning, which ruins the rest of the day. I used to feel heavy when I walk. My knees and my back couldn’t bear the weight. I wasn’t in a good physical condition, and that interfered with my everyday life. I wasn’t able to study well or concentrate in the lectures. It was also hard to remember things. In addition to feeling fatigued most of the day and lacking energy to do anything productive. I felt like I was 80 not 18!! Around the end of the first semester in junior year, I came to the realization that I should lose weight for myself and for my body to be healthier.

The reason behind my failure in the first attempt was that I did not educate myself about nutrition, exercise, weight loss, and so on, besides setting an unrealistic goal of losing 25 kgs in 2 months. I was aiming for a ‘thin’ body instead of a ‘healthy’ body, and that’s why I wasn’t motivated enough. When it was winter break, January of 2012, I started this lifestyle change. That’s when I wrote my journal entries I posted above.

How I got to being obese? Bad eating habits and no physical activity; simply sedentary lifestyle. So in order for me to achieve my weight loss goal and become healthier, I had to change the way I live. I had to change my mentality. And guess what? This time I was able to do it! During the two-week winter break I lost 3 kgs. The second semester started and I kept losing weight. I felt great!! It was like bringing life back to my body. It was the best decision I’ve ever made in my life.

Someone on the web asked a question to healthy people about why they choose to eat healthy and deprive themselves from the “delicious” fast food and sugary treats. My answer was

“I chose to do that to enjoy life. I changed my lifestyle because I wanted to be healthier, lighter, more energetic, be able to do more things, enjoy eating REAL delicious food, feel younger, avoid having diabetes and heart disease when I get older, and mostly important to appreciate the body I have. If you don’t do that, it’s like you don’t care about your body and you treat it like a garbage can, dumping anything and everything harmful and unhealthy in it. Also, you learn to have self-control and be able to resist temptations and actually feel good and proud of yourself.”

Like I said, being healthy has loads of advantages. You’ll feel youthful, happier, more active and radiant. You will feel so good about yourself and your self-confidence and self-esteem will increase. My life instantly got better from that point.  Here’s another entry from my journal I wrote in the beginning of senior year.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

“I’ve started this lifestyle change on January 29th 2012. I’ve lost 13 kilos (about 29 lbs) so far, and I’m so proud of my accomplishment. Though I still didn’t reach my goal, which is 9 kilos (about 20 lbs) away, my life already changed. First, I look thinner. Second, I feel lighter and more energetic. Third, I enjoy food more. Fourth, my body is stronger and healthier. And last but not least, by doing this I’m thanking God for the gift He gave me.”

Needless to say, senior year was much much better than any other previous year. I used to wake up fresh with no annoying headaches, had good night sleeps, became more confident and comfortable with who I am, no backaches when walking, ability to concentrate, better performance in college, increased productivity, more interest in life, and generally happiness and contentment. So if you are overweight or obese and living a sedentary lifestyle, what are you waiting for? Start now! There’s a whole new life out there waiting for you.