As I said before, I want to share with you my weight loss journey. It’s about time to tell my story of how I lost 19 kgs (about 42 lbs) and still going.
To start, I wanna show you parts of my journal to give you an idea of what was going on in my mind then.
Saturday, Jan 28, 2012
“When you have a pair of black jeans that fits you really well and one day you can’t get in it, you know you’ve got a serious weight gain problem”
“I bought those lovely coats for winter but because I gained about 5 kgs (11 lbs) I couldn’t wear them to college. I got on the scale and I found out the sad truth that I weigh about 80 kgs (176 lbs)!! Since I am 156 cm (5 feet 1) this is not acceptable AT ALL!!! Then I realized I can’t wait anymore to start losing weight.”
“I don’t want to say I am going to ‘diet’, no! I want to change my life style. I don’t want to lose weight to fit in a dress for a party or something. No, I want to have a healthy body and feel good about myself. Beside that I don’t want to learn that I have diabetes or high blood pressure when I turn 30.”
“So my goal is to be 50 kgs (110 lbs) which means I have to lose 25 kgs (55 lbs). This is not an easy thing and it’s gonna take time and will need patience and perseverance. I will do it.”
I’ve been overweight since I was a child and became obese in my late teens. I was in some kind of denial that I am obese. I was well-aware that I needed to lose weight, but not that much. I’ve always wanted to lose weight and never was comfortable in my own skin. When I was 18, in the summer of 2011, I decided that enough is enough. I was determined to lose the 25 kgs and start the junior year in college with a new thin body. Of course I failed. Not only I didn’t lose weight, but gained another 3 kgs (about 7 lbs)! I was crushed.
I then decided to accept the fact that I’ll never be thin and I have to deal with my fat body in another way. So I went to shop for baggy and loose clothes to hide my body. I bought two floral blouses that were ugly as dog vomit. I only bought them because they were loose. I wanted to wear one of them with a black pair of jeans I had to college in the first day in junior year. Guess what? The jeans didn’t fit me. I was crushed even more.
During the first semester of junior year, my body was screaming “please I want to be healthy”. I used to have these awful headaches every single morning, which ruins the rest of the day. I used to feel heavy when I walk. My knees and my back couldn’t bear the weight. I wasn’t in a good physical condition, and that interfered with my everyday life. I wasn’t able to study well or concentrate in the lectures. It was also hard to remember things. In addition to feeling fatigued most of the day and lacking energy to do anything productive. I felt like I was 80 not 18!! Around the end of the first semester in junior year, I came to the realization that I should lose weight for myself and for my body to be healthier.
The reason behind my failure in the first attempt was that I did not educate myself about nutrition, exercise, weight loss, and so on, besides setting an unrealistic goal of losing 25 kgs in 2 months. I was aiming for a ‘thin’ body instead of a ‘healthy’ body, and that’s why I wasn’t motivated enough. When it was winter break, January of 2012, I started this lifestyle change. That’s when I wrote my journal entries I posted above.
How I got to being obese? Bad eating habits and no physical activity; simply sedentary lifestyle. So in order for me to achieve my weight loss goal and become healthier, I had to change the way I live. I had to change my mentality. And guess what? This time I was able to do it! During the two-week winter break I lost 3 kgs. The second semester started and I kept losing weight. I felt great!! It was like bringing life back to my body. It was the best decision I’ve ever made in my life.
Someone on the web asked a question to healthy people about why they choose to eat healthy and deprive themselves from the “delicious” fast food and sugary treats. My answer was
“I chose to do that to enjoy life. I changed my lifestyle because I wanted to be healthier, lighter, more energetic, be able to do more things, enjoy eating REAL delicious food, feel younger, avoid having diabetes and heart disease when I get older, and mostly important to appreciate the body I have. If you don’t do that, it’s like you don’t care about your body and you treat it like a garbage can, dumping anything and everything harmful and unhealthy in it. Also, you learn to have self-control and be able to resist temptations and actually feel good and proud of yourself.”
Like I said, being healthy has loads of advantages. You’ll feel youthful, happier, more active and radiant. You will feel so good about yourself and your self-confidence and self-esteem will increase. My life instantly got better from that point. Here’s another entry from my journal I wrote in the beginning of senior year.
Sunday, October 7, 2012
“I’ve started this lifestyle change on January 29th 2012. I’ve lost 13 kilos (about 29 lbs) so far, and I’m so proud of my accomplishment. Though I still didn’t reach my goal, which is 9 kilos (about 20 lbs) away, my life already changed. First, I look thinner. Second, I feel lighter and more energetic. Third, I enjoy food more. Fourth, my body is stronger and healthier. And last but not least, by doing this I’m thanking God for the gift He gave me.”
Needless to say, senior year was much much better than any other previous year. I used to wake up fresh with no annoying headaches, had good night sleeps, became more confident and comfortable with who I am, no backaches when walking, ability to concentrate, better performance in college, increased productivity, more interest in life, and generally happiness and contentment. So if you are overweight or obese and living a sedentary lifestyle, what are you waiting for? Start now! There’s a whole new life out there waiting for you.